It can be irritating at times. It can be a blessing beyond belief. Such is the artistic temperament. It is an often misunderstood, sometimes under-appreciated, yet always formidable set of strengths and weaknesses.
At times I have cursed it. It has brought me much pain and sorrow. And yet, over the years, through much hard won growth and wisdom, I have finally fully embraced it. For it has also brought me joys that only those blessed to posses it can fathom. A true double-edged sword, it allows those who posses it, or perhaps rather are possessed by it, to fully feel the soaring heights of delight, but also the soul crushing depths of pain.
In my case that duality has not been as forthcoming in the expression as it has been in the feeling. While I feel the depths and the heights equally, it seems that the overwhelming majority of my artistic expression has centered on the depths.
This is most unfortunate!
Lately I have been captivated by a bliss I have never known brought on by the love of a woman such as I have never known. Yet with all of my supposed gift for artistic expression, sizeable vocabulary, and penchant for writing about my life experiences, my blog has grown eerily silent. I cannot seem to give voice to this rapture that I feel. I cannot seem to find the right words. I have kept my joy as private as my pain was public.
I do offer this defense: I have been busy with the more important matter - the matter of building a strong, healthy, God-centered relationship that will stand the test of time and last for a lifetime. In the mean time, know that God is good and He has led me into a wonderful season of joy and beauty. Hopefully, as time goes by, I will have more joy to share and be more fully able to share it.
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Isn't there a saying that goes something like "Great art is born out of great pain."
Now, I don't believe that is completely true, but we certainly analyze our misery more than our joy.
It seems to me that most people just lose themselves in their happiness, but seek escape from their misery.
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